Enough

 
After almost three months of planning, about 30 volunteers and over 200 attendees, our charity event for the BC Cancer Foundation was finally done.

I can’t be happier that it’s over, because, to be honest, I was quite exhausted with it by the end. Working on the event was great and it was for a great cause, but planning one event for that long period of time was just tiring and I felt it started to take over my life towards the end. Though the result this year was not as good as what I wanted it to be, we still did modestly good by raising over $11,000.

We also made it to a few of the local newspapers like 24Hrs (shown in the picture above), Vancouver Courier, and a Japanese newspaper (I even had a chance to speak a little bit of Japanese during the interview, the reporter was shocked.) It’s funny that a lot of people actually read those local newspapers; I have fair amount of people said they saw the articles. Rumor has it  we will be in the National Post this coming Saturday, I hope, if there’s a picture of me, it won’t be one like the one above where my mouth was wide opened. Oh, the community channel also came and did an interview with us, so I’m sure we’re on TV some where now, hopefully we did better than Miss Carolina last year.

So this week, Scott being away, I have a lot of time on my own to relax and to think about my life again.

For the past 10 years or so, I have been pushing myself in so many different areas and been trying to build a reputation about my work, my network and my personality. In many ways,  I have got many good feedbacks, but there always come a time when I have to ask myself why and who am I doing all these for?

I guess I always like having the satisfaction of accomplishing something, moreover, for some strange reason, I always feel that I have to proof that I am a worthy human being.

You know in the movie Ocean’s Eleven, in almost every scene Brad Pitt was eating or drinking? In the very last scene; however, when he was waiting outside to pick George Clooney up from jail along with Julia Roberts, he was eating a burger but then he stopped and threw the food away: he was finally full.

All these years I have been trying to find myself and where I belong. I tried to fit-in and seek for approvals, but at the end, what I really wanted is to stay at home with the people that I love and be loved.

The other day, I was sitting on the couch with Scott and Cleo. Cleo was rolling around and Scott happily gave her a belly rub. There weren’t anything special about the day; there were no budget to run, no sponsors to hunt, no clients to satisfy; just the three of us on a Sunday afternoon.

But, that was enough.

Edit: I re-read this post and realized it had major grammatical problems. I tried to correct all of them, but of course it probably just made it worse. Sorry for those who read this before it was proofread.

Comments

[Long Story Longer]

I love this post. Beautiful. I hope I can learn this lesson.

[greg b (aka Plan9)]

Congrats on the success of your event!!