Today started off a very good day. I was no longer depressed and I was ready to type off whole bunch of stuff I wanted to do so for a long time... then everything just starting to go downhill from there again. Instead of leaving a bad note on the blog, I decided to type about the depressing stuff in this post and save the happy stuff for the next one.

Flat Tire
I've got another flat tire, this is the second time in three months. I don't know what happened this time, but I went out to pickup lunch, and when I came back, someone from work told me I am flat. Not the typical comments I get everyday.

Anyway, I originally budgeted to replace the spare tire of the Jeep this week, the money will now have to go towards the new tire, so the spare tire will have to hold off again. Which is depressing because I'm getting sick of being make fun of having a Jeep with no spare tire.

Birthday
So, once again, my birthday is being a huge issue for everyone this year. I'm sure I've typed this before, but having birthday in mid-December sucks. Back then in school, my birthday always land on an exam day and people always promise me that they will have a celebration for me after, which never happened. By the time it's late December, everyone was busy with Christmas parties and my what-so-called birthday party will be a sidekick of another birthday in January.

I didn't have a proper celebration for so many years that I decided to host my own party on my 25th birthday, which proven to be a lot easier to force people to come than let them decide on their own term. I think my line was "how many years have you known me and how many of my birthday party you have been to? Point made, please sign your name here."

After knowing Scott, birthday went better, there were two very memorable celebration. One was that Scott and the guys took me to the most expensive restaurant in Vancouver, Lumiere. It was by far the most expensive dinner I've had (and might be I will ever have). It was just between the few of us, but it was intimate and great. The other one, I partially arranged it with Vivian and everyone got drunk and I got a huge mango cake from Priscilla, it wasn't my personal one, but at least it's a party. The sad part was both years  Scott couldn't be there on my actual birthday because of work.

As I thought things have changed and my lonely birthday curse has broke, this year is proving me wrong once again.

I was originally going to plan my own birthday again this year, thinking my 29th birthday is more worthwhile to celebrate than the depressing we-shall-not-mention age, but everyone told me to just do it next year, so I held it and let people arrange it for me. It turned out, my birthday is sandwiched between two birthdays, a ski-trip (which by the way, I were supposed to go but sacrificed myself so everyone can get a better deal for accommodation), a work-trip, Christmas parties and of course the birthday of the baby-freakin-Jesus himself, which for all you prop-hate supporters out there, HE IS FICTIONAL. What does that mean for me? That means my birthday is once again an inconvenient to everyone and I have been receiving emails/phone calls asking me whether I mind sharing parties or is it okay to do my birthday in another day. It's not particularly the kind of attention I am looking for.

So here is what I propose, people. How about we just skip it this year if everyone can promise me that my 30th birthday can be the first priority among other birthdays and parties. One year, that I have a birthday dinner/party BEFORE my actual birthday; one year, that I can have a birthday with everyone there and I am the ONLY birthday boy; one year, that I don't have to feel guilty for having my birthday at the busiest time of the year. One year, that's all I ask. Well, that and a Mini-Cooper for Christmas. I'm sure if you all chip in a little it could happen. Please make it a red one, thank you.

I hate myself for being so naive and being such an annoying bitch about this... but there's a kid inside me that always feel abandoned, and this really doesn't help.

Depression is now official back on! w00t!

Comments

[rossy]

Will you like me to celebrate your birthday? Maybe with Wanda, Tammy and my sis? Pick a day if you like to...

[Greg]

I am outraged on your behalf about these birthdays! Why should it be you who has to share or postpone or not celebrate when others plainly get their party, even though they obviously have their day at the same awkward time of year? It sounds like you've been very accommodating (maybe a push-over?) and you're absolutely right to be annoyed.

Hey, if you get 2 Mini Coopers by mistake, can I have one? I've pretty much decided that I want one, too. Black though, if possible.

Happy Birthday on the 12th (if I've got that right?)

G x

[miniv]

I AM IN FOR NEXT YEAR!!WAHOOO!!

red mini's are the best!!
i'll wrap myself up wearing red no worries!!;)

[Long Story Longer]

Hey - I appreciate you posting this. It helps me feel normal. :)

I'm sorry about your tire, and I'm sorry about your birthday!! My best friend's birthday is 12/25, and don't even get me started on all the ways she's been shorted every year. It sucks. I really understand your feelings, and I think anyone in your situation would have them. I hope Scott doesn't have to work this year, and I wish Greg & I lived closer - we could all go crazy on your special day.

:)