Raw and transparent

People lose interests in blogging for many reasons. They don't find it fun anymore to exhibit their lives to others; they don't have anything interesting in life that deserves to type about; they ventured into something more interested and just abandon their blogs. Many reasons. I have to say, however, none of these reasons applied to me. I have honestly been missing this blog for the past half a year, every single day.

I guess for the past 2 years, this blog has been a very important outlet for me to express my thoughts in my own pace. Despite that I like to talk a lot and make silly comments all the time, I actually have a tough time to convey my feelings or thoughts to others. May be it's the language barrier or maybe I find communicating with human is complicated. In a way, I am somewhat of an artist and can only express my true ideas indirectly through another channel. That being said, with my lack of talents in art, the only thing I really have is my broken language, which takes time to manifest. And this blog serves this purpose.

Not having this the past 6 months, I realized I get angry easier, I get frustrated more often and I get depressed faster. Maybe a personal blog is really not for exhibitionists after all; maybe it can also allow a closeted introvert to communicate with himself and try to organize his thoughts so he, himself, can understand his own feelings.

I wanted to make more changes to the blog before relaunching it, but it takes time. I know myself too well that if I don't have this begin again, it will be another half a year when I start typing again. I don't think I can handle missing this for another half a year.

So here I am. Raw and transparent, once more.

Comments

[Greg]

Welcome back! I think you made the right decision. I strongly recognise what you say about needing to organise your thoughts and understand yourself by writing. It's hard to imagine you angry, though :D

[Jeff]

I am so glad you are going to start blogging again. I was getting so tired of reading that last entry over and over. :-)
Please keep going with your blog, Humphrey. It means a lot to know what you are doing, what you are thinking, and how you are feeling.